merry anniversary

today, right on this christmas day, is our 1st anniversary. to be honest, i never thought we would make it this far. we even had huge fight a day before and broke up for a while. i know we're not a lovey dovey couple at all. we're one chaotic couple. we fucked up and messed up our relationship. we're drunk and we're stoned and argued a lot. just the fact that we love each other so much, "it was strange glue that held us together", catatonia said. we even started our relationship not by romantic proposal him saying "would you be my girlfriend?" with flowers or something else.. we started out friends, and then after a while we had a fight because he got jealous and i kind of disappeared because i still had issues with my past and i didn't need his jealousy at the time and i thought he was being irrelevant, i meant we're just friends and he was not supposed to be jealous. and then he said he loved me. most of the time i love our relationship. it's like having your best friend all the time. we're partner in crime ;). it's been wild and fun and crazy. it's like rollercoaster of emotion. i always know i don't live up to mediocrity. i don't have "normal" job, "normal" sleeping time and "normal" relationship. whatever. fuck that. i know my relationship isn't perfect. but if he's still willing to fight for me, i'm staying. happy anniversary my love, wish to better years to come :)

p.s : currently love this song, and love the video. relevant to my life :p

 

p.p.s merry christmas all :)