luminescent

roar!

2012-01-25T22:52:00.000+07:00

accidentally collecting all these items with leopard motives. mac classic eyeliner gel, pressed powder puff, and cosmetic pouch (a freebie from joy magazine). anyhow, i don't like to call it cosmetic pouch cause i'm not the kind of girl who wears cosmetic much. my daily routine is moisturizer, pressed powder, lip balm and a slightly touch of eyeliner. i only use blush on, mascara, lipstick for special occasion.

this is what i bring on my "essential" pouch everyday :

pressed powder + puff (i usually use the ordinary little square puff but one day in a cosmetic store i found this cute leopard puff so i bought it), perfume, lip balm, contact lens drops, hand sanitizer and a band aid cause apparently i'm so clumsy i often find myself got into minor accident. but hey, it's been a while since i accidentally cut myself or something. hahah. good for me :p.

necklace hanger

2012-01-23T19:51:00.000+07:00

one of my bad habit is i always in a rush. i don't like waking up early in the morning, so when i finally wake up and have to go to work/else, i don't have much time to prepare things (take a bath etc.), i always leave house in hurry. thankfully, that bad habit doesn't aggravated with other bad habit : unorganized/clutter. i'm pretty organized when it comes to keeping things. i put everything in order so when i'm in a hurry i don't add extra confuse in picking out clothes and accessories. especially when it comes to necklace, don't you just hate it when you put them in a box and they tangled each other? so i make this necklace hanger.

anyhow, the idea is not original mine. i saw it somewhere i forgot. and when i googled it, it kinda popular. i guess nothing's wrong with sharing here. for my version is pretty easy. you just need a styrofoam, i used flanel cloth to cover the plain styrofoam (you can use any other things, use your creativity!) and push pins. that's it. decorate them as you like. put it close to your mirror and wardrobe so you can easily mix and match it with your clothes.

pretty, organized, and ready to go!

8tracks

2012-01-22T18:21:00.000+07:00

call me late, but i just made an 8tracks account and loving it! it's actually not new for me, i had few times listening to friends' mix, but never want to try until now.

so far what i've made are gloomy songs hahah.. next time i promise to make more fun songs mix! follow me if you have one and i'll follow you back ^^

bitterness from devishanty on 8tracks.

fading away from devishanty on 8tracks.

i'm gonna miss this city

2012-01-19T02:02:00.000+07:00

tonight as i walked across the overpass, looked down into the jakarta traffic, i felt melancholic. well actually this past few days has been melancholic to me. last monday was my last day shooting my program at this tv station. i have officially resigned from this tv station i'd been working for this past two years. there are still few days thou for office thingy, but last day shooting felt like it's officially the last day. i have resigned and one month from now will be work at a magazine in bali. i forgot how it felt like when i was going to move from bandung (the city i had been living whole my life) to jakarta. i think i was just excited. for i finally got the job i've always wanted after i graduated from college. of course i felt nervous about going in whole new environment, living alone faraway from home and family etc, but bandung-jakarta just 2 hours by car, besides i have few friends here, my sister also live here even though faraway from my office but at least i felt secure if something bad happened. right now, moving to bali is ten times challenging. it's two hours by plane away and i have no one there. it took time for me to convince my parents that i'm going to be fine, but deep in my heart i feel nervous too. it's a mixed up feeling. between happy and excited for the job waiting for me there (my passion is in writing, and being a magazine editor of course one of the dream jobs!) not to mention living in bali where people call it "heaven on earth". i can't wait for all the excitement experience. but i also feel scared and nervous, and also feel sad for leaving my boyfie here, my friends, and even further from my family in bandung. even though jakarta is considered "hell on earth" for its nasty traffic jam and pollution, i don't know why i love this city. more than i love bandung my home town (if you're not indonesian and not familiar with its cities believe me it's a strange thing to love jakarta more than bandung).

some memories i have in jakarta, and while working for my tv program out of town.. really fun experience :)

at my office. i just feel obliged to take picture with the trophy from our no.1 program, barclays premier league.

in the control panel room. no, i'm not the person behind the machine :p

yes, the famous yellow sponge.

taken at the second day i got into jakarta, my first time taking transjakarta (public transport). lol

at bloc party concert

while shooting my program in lampung

maitem island, lampung

still in lampung

it's fun being paid by your office to travel :p

parasailing in bali for free.. i love my job (sometimes) :p

shooting my program in jogjakarta. the guy with sunglasses next to me is my current boyfie :p. by the time this photo taken we just knew each other. who knew, right?

shooting my program in pangandaran, with my host.

shooting my program in bromo, east java. so damn cold!

new year's eve 2011. somehow i love this blurry picture.

new year's eve 2011, the view of jakarta from 24th floor balcony.

finders keepers

2012-01-14T22:43:00.003+07:00

finders keepers is an australian label and they're now available at unestablish (click here to browse & shop!). this is so exciting. i always love ethereal and flowy dresses, even more they come in pastel and playful colors! here are some of my faves.

going back to the corner where i first saw you*

2012-01-14T14:28:00.000+07:00

ugly photo. it was raining and we were wet. we were drunk, and the photographer was also too drunk to take a decent photograph. but whatever. lol

this is the place where i first met with my current boyfie. it's a corner at his campus at jakarta institute of art. i came to his campus at nov 20th, 2010** to meet his friends for work-related thingy (for my tv programme) and they introduced me to him. my first impression of him, well, nothing. i didn't feel anything. just another acquaintance i have to deal with for my job. besides, at that time i already had boyfriend :p. later on i asked about how was his first impression of me he also felt nothing (didn't love me at first sight), he thought i was cocky lol :p. who thought that we're now together hehe.. (no i wasn't cheating from my previous boyfie, we were already in bad relationship and then we broke up, no i wasn't make him a rebound guy because i just got broke up, it was all happened naturally. we surprised ourselves too ^^).

* the script - the man who can't be moved
** yes i remember! well not really, i just remember that i attended djakarta artmosphere afterwards so i googled the date

cycle of love

2012-01-12T16:33:00.000+07:00

you met someone. you fell in love. being loved in return. everything was beautiful. then something happened. you had a fight. you argue. you broke up. you made up. you got bored. you broke up. your heart was broken. you don't believe in love anymore. you felt sad for days, weeks, months or even years. you found someone new. you fell in love again. hoping this time will be different.

it just like that over and over again. nothing new. one relationship is just a chapter we write in the book of our life. some has few chapters, some has a lot. when one chapter ended, another one begins. nothing to worry about.

when one relationship ended, no need to regret. all we had in the relationship somehow added colors to the story of our lives. it gave us new experience, knowledge, it encourage us and strengthen us.

people change. feelings fade. nothing lasts forever. all we can do is just cherish what we have today.

as a young girl, louis vuitton*

2012-01-11T14:15:00.000+07:00

my new earring!

*lyric by vampire weekend - cape cod kwassa kwassa

self-fulfillment

2012-01-03T22:21:00.001+07:00

a friend of mine just tweet, "tell me one good reason why we should need men?". she's 33 and still single. she's a really fun and joyful person. she's pretty and nice and why she hasn't been married til now is a mystery for me. she's not picky and from what i see she always have a boyfriend but maybe there are many reasons why her relationship never succeed into marriage.

despite her cynicism in her tweet, i actually like (or maybe the exact word is, admire) her attitude. although she has a boyfriend, but she's the kind of the girl who can be happy even if he doesn't have one. she can be happy by herself.

i admire that. i think the term "you complete me" popularized by tom cruise in jerry maguire is wrong. it seems like we're empty before we found someone. it may sound romantic when you're fall in love that the presence of your "other half" completes you, that they the center of your universe. but when they gone, your world would shatter apart. if you make someone your everything, when they're gone, you lost your everything, not just your "someone". and you know that nothing lasts forever right?

i think we should be happy by ourselves first before we meet someone who would make us even more happier. they just add another happiness to our life. it's called self-fulfillment. if we're already happy before we met them, we would stay happy after they're gone (a little sadness and tears for a while is humane, of course).

just my two cents. and this is somehow ironic because when i first met my current boyfriend right now, i was in sadness and deeply hurt from my previous relationship. we were just friends and i didn't want another relationship, but slowly he cures my broken heart and we fell for each other. so yeah i don't practice my own preach that i should be happy by myself before i meet my soul mate, but what can i do? maybe it's just the twist of fate. and i hope everything will be just fine between us :)

lovin' my new tartan converse shoes that match with the socks

2012-01-03T16:12:00.000+07:00

can you tell am i wearing any socks?

whoopsie!

happy new year!

2012-01-01T23:27:00.000+07:00

hi folks, how was your nye celebration? hope you had a great one! i spent it with my family (it's a rare occasion because we live in different cities). for me, 2012 is all about new chapter in my life. it's gonna be challenging yet exciting! wish you all happiness and great year ahead :)

playing fireworks with my nephews

this is from me to you. loooveeee!

watching fireworks in the sky. pretty :)

merry anniversary

2011-12-25T14:35:00.000+07:00

today, right on this christmas day, is our 1st anniversary. to be honest, i never thought we would make it this far. we even had huge fight a day before and broke up for a while. i know we're not a lovey dovey couple at all. we're one chaotic couple. we fucked up and messed up our relationship. we're drunk and we're stoned and argued a lot. just the fact that we love each other so much, "it was strange glue that held us together", catatonia said. we even started our relationship not by romantic proposal him saying "would you be my girlfriend?" with flowers or something else.. we started out friends, and then after a while we had a fight because he got jealous and i kind of disappeared because i still had issues with my past and i didn't need his jealousy at the time and i thought he was being irrelevant, i meant we're just friends and he was not supposed to be jealous. and then he said he loved me. most of the time i love our relationship. it's like having your best friend all the time. we're partner in crime ;). it's been wild and fun and crazy. it's like rollercoaster of emotion. i always know i don't live up to mediocrity. i don't have "normal" job, "normal" sleeping time and "normal" relationship. whatever. fuck that. i know my relationship isn't perfect. but if he's still willing to fight for me, i'm staying. happy anniversary my love, wish to better years to come :)

p.s : currently love this song, and love the video. relevant to my life :p

p.p.s merry christmas all :)

new crush

2011-12-22T19:05:00.000+07:00

lana del rey - born to die

i know, she's been everywhere. i love her right after i saw video games on mtv. she has classic beautiful face, and great voice. her songs are good, and i love this one too, born to die. love the video and the lyric, somehow related with my current love life.

"lost but now i am found
i can see but once i was blind
i was so confused as a little child
tried to take what i could get
scared that i couldn't find
all the answers, honey

don't make me sad, don't make me cry
sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough
i don't know why
keep making me laugh,
let's go get high
the road is long, we carry on
try to have fun in the meantime

come and take a walk on the wild side
let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
you like your girls insane
choose your last words,
this is the last time
cause you and i
we were born to die"

very short trip to the other side of bali

2011-12-14T23:23:00.000+07:00

bali is more likely famous for its beaches.. and i have several times gone there to shoot my programme, in kuta, sanur, tanjung benoa and tulamben. but this time i didn't go to the beach at all.

last weekend i got invited by bali safari to watch theatre show called "bali agung - the legend of balinese goddesses". the show itself was friggin awesome. it involved 150 people/dancers, 40 puppets and more than 30 animals, including ten elephants (!!). i can't show you the pictures right now, but i promise you i will give you a link to a complete cover of my journey on the online version of my magazine when it's ready.

i spent the night at mara river - bali safari lodge, gianyar, where in the morning, when i open the window in my room, there was a rhino in the yard. there was even zebra and wildebeest. i felt like i was in madagascar!

can you imagine this view in your backyard?

i also had dinner in tsavo lion restaurant where you can see lion outside but i was unlucky the lion maybe was sleeping and didn't show up. too bad :(. there was an ostrich, though.

with lucy the parrot

the next day, me and other media fellows had trip to three pura (hindunese temple) in kintamani, as a trace back on the journey of king jaya pangus. even though i'm not a hindu, but i always love to see other religion ceremony. and i was lucky there was a full moon ceremony going. and i love how all people there were so nice to us, they were not disturbed by our presence even though they were having their prayers. they even welcome me as non-hindu to pray there, saying "no matter what religion you are, we're all have one purpose, the divine god."

hey i got splashed by holy water!

with other media fellows.

we have to use sarong and some kind of fabric as belt if we go to pura.

it's a very short trip but fun, and it's a late post because i immediately got busy soon after i arrived in jakarta. well bali, see you soon :)

christmas wishlist

2011-12-09T06:39:00.001+07:00

so currently unestablish is having this giveaway and all we have to do is just post 3 of our favorite items on their site, so here's mine :

kling dress osterley. perfect dress for church on christmas eve. hey santa i've been a good girl, where's my gift? tee-hee :)

kling dress fields dreams. laying in the grass, daydreaming, looking at the cottony cloud on this perfect weather.

kling dress jackie vintage. christmas dinner is ready! oh i'm eating too much cookies!

don't forget to send your blog post links to: donovan@unestablish.com. i hope i win! i really love the dresses.. and good luck to you too ;)

what's hanging on my wall

2011-12-07T17:30:00.001+07:00

stencil painting my boyfie made for my birthday


super cuties photo collage of me and my boyfie. i'm collecting everything about "bee" since it's my nickname from boyfie :p

my room is full of love <3

the girl who makes me feel okay having small boobs :p

2011-12-07T15:56:00.001+07:00

Christian Brylle and Freja Beha Erichsen as Robert Mapplethorpe and Patti Smith for VMAN #20.

Photography by Christian Brylle.

hope, meanness & decision*

2011-12-02T17:32:00.001+07:00

it turns out that 2011 is the year for me to glue back the pieces of my heart that once shattered in 2010. too many tears last year. i broke someone's heart, and then someone else broke my heart, and then someone else. maybe it's karma, i don't know, but i'm thankful for that. i'm thankful for the experiences, it strengthen me. i'm thankful because if after i broke someone's heart i immediately meet my current boyfriend -my soulmate right now- and didn't have to go through all the pains, i will feel guilty and not deserve this. i'm really thankful for my current boyfie right now. i finally found the one :)

in so-called career department, i'm doing so-so this year. time passes by so fast because i've been so fuckin' busy. i went out of town for a week, twice a month for shooting my programmes. it was actually fun, not everyone get the chance to go out of town/ go to beautiful beaches for free, even though i went for work but of course there are times for sight seeing, having fun etc. plus, tourist facilities for free like parasailing in bali, etc. yes, it was all so much fun. but i'm getting tired for living in the fast lane, airport every week and lack of sleep. and most of all, no matter how fun it is, i still keep my dream in my heart. i don't want to throw it away.

december 2010, i met the man who cure me from my heartache. and now december 2011, good news come from the island of gods and goddesses. chance for me to chase again my dreams who once forgotten because i'm too busy trapped in this company. all i need is one chance, and some people to put their trust in me that i can do this. it's not about the money. it's never about it. i need money, of course, but it's never my first priority. it's about passion, and dreams. nowadays i rarely see people my age who still hold their dreams and idealism, and i'm glad me and my boyfie are one of them.

"this one's for you and me, living out our dreams
we're all right where we should be
lift my arms out wide I open my eyes
and now all I wanna see
is a sky full of lighters,
a sky full of lighters"
(bruno mars feat eminem - lighter)

i know chasing my dreams away means i'm going to be apart from my boyfie. leaving my little house. leaving my comfort zone. those are the consequences i have to bear. my boyfie has to finish his college first in institute of art (yes, ladies and gentlemen, he's still a student). afterwards, he always says he wants to extend his study in painting. maybe he could go to ubud? i feel like kugy and keenan already in dee's novel "perahu kertas" where the girl is a writer and the boy is a painter and they're both are dreamers, hehe :p

oh i don't know what will happen in 2012. que sera sera.. just follow my heart, yes? :)

*song title by homogenic

graphology

2011-11-29T01:04:00.001+07:00

a friend of mine who works at nova tabloid offered me to get my handwriting's "read". it's not some kind of fortune teller thingy but graphology really is some kind of psychological study everyone can learn.

"graphology is the pseudoscientific study and analysis of handwriting, especially in relation to human psychology." (wikipedia)

so, i sent her a letter consists of my handwriting and my boyfie's. in that letter i said that i have been dating with him for 9 months (it's 11 now :P) but we already decided to get married. will this be a good decision for us, since we both are hot- tempered and argue a lot. but i really love him and want to work this out. my boyfie wrote the same thing.

mrs. mita, the graphologist gave deep analysis about both characters. some right, some not. i don't like how she called it "opposite attraction". i don't know, i never thought that way about our relationship. on the contrary, both of us have a lot of things in common. too much, that i feel him as "male version of me". plus, the fact that both of us are virgo. we share same personality, same taste in music, movies and lot of things.

but yes, she was right in the part of me using more emotion and having a good instinct, sometimes doing things just instinctively, and him logically and a good analyzer. she was right when she said we both very egocentric. i know, i have been a selfish person all this time and in my previous relationships. and this time with him, i get to meet a more superior partner. to be honest, i feel like i'm "defeated". but i'm relieved coz all this time i don't like my bad habit for easily angry for small things, always force what i want and being superior to my previous boyfriends. with him right now, somehow i've found my equal partner.

people said when two people falling in love everything's beautiful, not with us. in the beginning of our relationship, we argue a lot, almost everyday. now as time goes by we lessen it. we both learn to control our emotions. i guess this relationship somehow useful as our anger management. we try to understand each others.

he truly is the best i've ever had. i really love him and he's perfect for me in his imperfection. we started out as friends, he's still my bestfriend and we do crazy stuffs together. other than our personalities (which i said we have the same personality), yes we do have differences in see/value things, but as mrs. mita said, differences are there so we can complete each other.

"try to see it my way,
only time will tell if i am right or i am wrong.
while you see it your way
there's a chance that we might fall apart before too long.
we can work it out,
we can work it out."

(the beatles)

jktbdgpp

2011-11-27T14:28:00.001+07:00

went to "jakarta bandung pulang pergi" art exhibition opening last night with my boyfie. too bad we couldn't stay longer coz he got work to do :(. a friend of mine held this event and some of the artists are my boyfie's friend at his campus (jakarta institute of art). held until dec 31st at dia.lo.gue artspace kemang if you wanna go there ;)

with shinta //
my favorite artwork (oh you know me) : ritchie ned hansel's. he even named it : "there's a light that never goes out". touche!

dave syauta's artwork. yes, i got your point, love. haha.

sir dandy's

blast from the past

2011-11-27T14:23:00.001+07:00

some photographs from previous blog. when my hair is longer :')

florence + the machine - cosmic love

m83 - graveyard girl

when we were young

2011-11-22T23:56:00.001+07:00

reminiscing the time when i did "fashion blogging" (sort of). it was short period of time between after i graduated from college and got full time job. i had online shop so i spent a lot of time on the internet. i did manage to attend a meet-up with other fashion blogger fellas, anita and tabitha. it was fun time! see, i was brighter and shinier back then.. long before all this chaotic time working almost 24 hours a day in this tv station haha.. i need time to breathe.. right now i don't have time for myself :p

currently listening

2011-11-22T00:58:00.001+07:00

my favorite bands release their new albums not so long time ago.. such a perfect way to close 2011 \m/

kasabian - velociraptor!

coldplay - mylo xyloto

justice - audio video disco

m83 - hurry up, we're dreaming

arctic monkeys - suck it and see

my current favorite tracks are m83 - year one, one ufo, coldplay - paradise, and kasabian - velociraptor!. kasabian and justice are still the bands i knew, coldplay did some experiments here and there, the new m83 is not so gloomy anymore, and i found it a little bit hard to digest arctic monkeys this time. need to play them on repeat in my playlist more. and i wish to watch all of them live on 2012.. pleaseeeee!

louboutin nails

2011-11-22T00:14:00.001+07:00

by devishanty

wedding. part 1.

2011-11-20T23:05:00.006+07:00

some inspiration for my wedding reception. actually for the florence + the machine's video, it's not my inspiration. i got shocked when i saw the video coz it has some elements i already want for my wedding. flower head piece. bouquet of flowers. white, flowy ethereal dress. harpist. candles. i want it to be some mixture between beach party and madhatter tea party.

sources : unknown, i forgot, sorry :(

there's a light that never goes out

2011-11-20T21:44:00.007+07:00

i don't know since when exactly, i have this thing with lamps, lights, glow-in-the-dark objects,shiny things, candles, chandelier, whatever.. but i do remember my first collection of lamp is christmas/rice lamps i bought around a year ago. i made it decoration in my old room, i wrapped it around my bed like this (this is my inspiration) :

(the picture is not mine, source : unknown)

all of a sudden my likes has become obsession. i start to collect them. plus i have a boyfriend who works in art dept and know where to get cool and quirky things and he bought me this and that to add my collection.
and so i decide the name luminescent is the perfect name for my new blog :D
actually i've been blogging since long time ago, around year 2000. i keep changing url and blog hosting coz i get easily bored, and then i went for a long long hiatus since mid 2010 since i start to work full time in a tv station in jakarta, i couldn't find spare time and decided to give up blogging. that, and came along the twitter era. people around me has stopped blogging too so it made me even more lazier. but lately i kinda miss writing. very much. i have always been writing since i was little. i want to keep call myself writer even though i just publish one of my novels, and i don't work as a journalist (coz i majored in journalism). i want to keep writing. sometimes 140 characters just ain't enough.
that "light" never goes out. that lights is my passion in writing :)